Last night, me and my Lover,Jay, dropped acid.
It might sound fucking ridiculous,or even disgusting to some people,
That one of my dreams has been to try Acid for YEARS,
But well,its the truth.
Ive been obsessed with the idea of it, the drug, the visions,for as long as I can remember. I guess it came along with being artistic, then loving art, and then loving psychedelic music and art. I’m pretty sure my life-long obsession with Alice in Wonderland kind of spurred my obsession with Acid also, even though Lewis Carroll never took any hallucinogens. Especially during the writing of the book. However, the story has become a big central idea in the world of Acid and psychedelic drugs, and art.
Jay, knowing a lot about drugs and being experienced, was super happy and kind about going on my first trip with me,especially in case anything went wrong. At 1am we took our tabs, which were Avenger tabs (which are supposed to be really great) and we put them under our tongues.
And we sat, and waited till it got soggy, and well,kicked in.
It didn’t take long at all, it took effect in about 15-20 minutes. Which felt both amazing and insane.
My body was clearly both in shock and in utter fascination with what was happening to it, since there was a foreign substance running through me.
At first,it affected me really badly. I was INCREDIBLY shaky and had this awful cold-shaky feeling inside of me, as my face went numb. It was really warm in the room, and we had blankets, and jay told me my body itself was really,really warm but inside,I was shaking like crazy.
I was a bit freaked out, but because your brain isn’t thinking straight,in fact its not really thinking at all (as you cant follow you trails of thought) I couldn’t control how I felt. It was purely because my body was freaking out about what was running through it.
My pupils enlarged, Things slowly started to warp.
I will describe my visuals, for it’s something I never want to forget.
I saw DNA strips running up and down a wall,on my left as we lay on the floor. On the wall in front of us, there was a flowery wall paper, they flowers were all, every single one of their leaves and petals, were outlined with light- red, green,yellow. And the flowers and their leaves slowly began to move and morph and come alive.
My favourite thing had to be, along with the rainbows and lights,
Was that when I looked at Jay’s skin , and his face especially-
I could see all his vessels. I saw his face, then it would light up underneath his skin almost, and I would see every single one of his vessels, veins,capillaries, sometimes even muscles.
It wasn’t terrifying or anything,I was fascinated,it was quite beautiful.
When he smiled,it made my heart sing, and it made me smile.
Skin is the craziest thing to feel when on acid.
It feels…spongey, but then really rubbery, and like it isn’t yours.
Its quite amusing, because you are in this shell, and when you feel your own shell,it feels like it isn’t even your own?
And then the skin felt like liquid,like it was melting away into the water that I saw on the floor. During the start, when I was freaking out, and ym body was reacting to the chemicals inside of me, I needed to desperately hold onto Jay. He was my anchor. Is,in real life also.
But,because at the beginning i was freaking out, He felt like he was melting away.
After a good hour and a half, that calmed down and stopped,
and I calmed down also. Which was wonderful,of course.
Time slows down, and can do some weird shit also.
For me, it felt like the tv was replaying the same episode over and over and over again for a period of time. This was during the bad moment also,so it paranoid,frustrated me and gave me a sick feeling.
Time goes much slower overall though. But thankfully,this lets us enjoy every moment of the wonderful drug and what it does to us.
One of the craziest things, and hard to describe,
is the way you talk yourself into circles,or corners.
You CANNOT follow your own trail of thought,its insane!
I would have a great thought, want to to share it with Jay-
But by the time I have thought of the thought itself and ‘Im going to tell this to Jay now’…it drifts off, and I start telling him how I drifted off, and try to recall what my thought was…it never works, and you talk gibberish and come out with nothing at all.
Its pretty hallarius, but oh so frustrating at the same time.
However,you’re too out of your mind to be bothered by it.
But GOD, how beautiful,insane and amazing it was.
I have this raging pride inside of me,that I actually did it.
Going to the grave without a psychedelic experience,
is like going to the grave without ever having sex.
Its FUCKING RIDICULOUS!
So, fuck it. Be a hippie, Open your mind!
Let yourself see fantasy, or maybe its the real reality we see.
Let yourself let go, let yourself run free. Let yourself loose your mind.
You only live once in this body that you have now.
Might as well try as much as you can.
~ M e l l o